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22
Feb

Mad House

Welcome and come on in! I’m currently goin CRAZY! I’m loving it too! I now have NO regard for these false business men and women out there! That goes for you make believe “models” and reading rainbow rappers as well! Look people, I’m not one to talk down on anyone willing to lay a foundation but PLEASE take heed from the Italians: You cannot lay a concrete foundation with anything less than . . . well . . . concrete! I say this because I’ve constantly had to deal with the “I’m gonna pay you half tomorrow” or “I love your work! Lets shoot!” . . . ONLY to present my rates and get this ole bullshit response: “Well ole boy ova hurr charge $___ for the same thing” . . . I usually follow up with: That’s understood, I can cut you a deal. Well . . . not anymore! Screw you all! If you want my work, you pay my price, I’m in the process of building a family and maintaining a household. None of you have the right to negotiate what is meant to be non-negotiable in the first place!

I’m not being an asshole . . . ok I am, but it’s deserved, I’ve starved too long, been screwed too deep and fucked too hard by you snakes and cowards! My time is now but sadly, I believe it could have came much sooner if I had known better and left you hoes alone! . . . As usual, there will be the texts or phone calls sayin “Whats wrong bro” or “Do we have a problem?” . . . LMAO sadly these individuals are furthest from the subject of this post but probably need to feel some type of relevance in their business life possibly believe that they will find it in me . . . . [insert yeah right face here] LMAO, wow . . . wow wow . . . WOW!

Am I ranting? You damn right I am! Am I pissed? You fucking correct on that one buddy! Who’s is this? MY HOUSE! Add all that together and you get a Mad House with an Angry Owner! My anger is motivation! I’m tired of not doing anything about some of the nonsense I’ve gone through! Picked up a copy of Fannatic Magazine? Did you like it? More specifically did you like the cover? GOOD CAUSE THAT’S MY CONCEPT! MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY LITERALLY RIPPED FROM ME DURING THE HOLIDAYS!!!! X-mas 2009 brought some very bad news my way. I was on ramp to be graphic designer/creative director for Deziree Ramirez’s Fannatic Magazine! When I realized all that I was expected to do BY MYSELF, I PROPOSED being paid more money for my services (by this time I had designed the cover for the first issue, which ended up sporting a different model due to an unsigned model release form). She called me while I was work the next day (I couldn’t answer obviously), I called her back on my break, then again once I got off . . . no response from her at all. X-Mas Eve comes up and shoot her a text about our standing business wise with the mag. She stated that THE MAG IS COMPLETED. I see the completed cover and notice the new model and a few text changes, the styled lettering of the magazine, the layout of all elements on the cover . . . ALL INTACT!!!!

I don’t trip, these things happen . . . however I state that I will take my payment of the work I did and she tries some Jedi Mind Trick on me and says: That’s not your design, I’m not paying you for something you did not do . . . OKAY, alright . . . time to start calling for legal advice. So, needless to say I have a valid case . . . however, to add insult to injury, I don’t even get credit for my work . . . THIS is why I have no heart! THAT is why you will now pay me upfront, or don’t get my work at all.

What you see on the left is what was printed . . . what’s on the right is me. The “FANNATIC” styling is my original concept. She had NO working concept, I provided that for her . . . now you can find it still in use on issue 2. Think I’m lying? Check her site http://www.undezcovered.com/

21
Jan

. . . but am I ready?

No need to make false promises and say that I’m gonna be writing more often or anything like that. I just need some space to trash all these thoughts and I figured this was the best storage facility.

All good things come to an end and here recently I’ve been considering ending a few of those myself! However I always hesitate and stop myself. Which conjures the questions: Am I committed to this journey? Or have I served my purpose already? Either way, am I ready for the endgame that is enacted down each road? Claiming to be ready for ANYTHING is truly a great way to egg all over your face, so obviously I never truly meant it whenever I said it . . . But with so many good things occurinn over the horizon should I make room for them or try and squeeze them in?

I guess until then I should get a bigger room. Two major photoshoots in two months, dying patience for these magazines, decaying patience for false financial prophets and a boiling hatred for the hourly pay rate I get for the work I do. Well obviously I’m holding on to what may seem to be dead weight, but is it really dead? And can it truly be that heavy?

The questions seem vague and the answers aren’t in the ironic status of being clear. I’m human, yes, but this agony of being lost is a mutant. I need a cape.

La Demiurge

La Demiurge

07
Dec

Demiurge d’Alexandre

It has begun everyone, I’m leaving the OhSoSirius name behind to explore the world of creativity as myself! Alot has changed with me and those around me and I feel that it’s only right that I make this change. I’ve outgrown OhSoSirius . . . I mean it’s been 12 years since I began using it and now . . . now I’m just STUCK! It didn’t help any that I found out Sirius is the most significant star in Satanism (OUCH)! So I’m moving on . . .

Some things will remain under the OSS title until I can get it all changed over to DdA, but I wanted to make everyone aware just in case they start seeing both and wondered whether it was me or not. Nothing much to say beyond that . . . just keep your eyes peeled!